Bus Stop

Heyo guys!
                 I'm really sorry I haven't blogged in like a month it's just nothing interesting happened at all. And because I want to talk about a boy in my class. I will call him Bus Stop since that's his nick name in school.

So Bus Stop is that one kid in your class who is tiny and fragile and a shy person but-um-let's say- follows the crowd. He came into my year group about mid-last year, he was really shy and some kids picked on him for the 'banter'. I felt sorry for him. 

However

One day he disappeared. One day he was in maths and the next poof! I didn't see him for like 2 months. So, then he comes back from hogwarts or whatever and is like.
"Aw, miss we're doing work. Cannot be f***king bothered wiz dis. Ffs." His hair was plastered with gel and he walked in like them straight white lads who think they're proper hard and spits on the floor. (If you are that person *pushes you out door*) And then he f**ks off back to narnia, walking out the classroom.

In actual fact he'd be in isolation. And not for swearing, bullying, fighting etc. nononono that's not Bus Stop. He was put in isolation for 2 months for walking out of class. 

Now I've seen him do this. He just goes to the nearest popular arsehole lad "You dare me to walk out? I'll walk out me. I don't care." Annnndd then everyone's like "Oh yeah go on Bus Stop." Then he walks out.

He's better now. He's not normally in isolation. He's just a bit stupid. Like he has no common sense. He's trying to fit it by being someone he's not.

Today he told be he lives in York, which is about an hour away with good traffic. He told me he gets a taxi from his farm, which doesn't exist and also where he "bummed" his cow daisy.

Yep. You can imagine why I've lost all fate in humanity.

In half an hour, on working days, during rush hour. He calls people words I shall not repeat, gets angry at nothing, scribbles on his work, says utter crap and gets into 'fight' (aka saying he knocked someone out and threatening to kill them). 

I'm not a bitchy person. And please don't take it the wrong way as this post is not out to attack him. I'm saying don't be Bus Stop don't be someone you're not to impress others. Don't act stupid when you're really smart. Don't get into trouble at school to show off. And don't throw your life away to get noticed.

Don't be a Bus Stop be yourself.

Also are any of you going to the Dan and Phil tour? I watched the video last night and cried for an hour an a half, I'm so bloody proud of them. And I was not emotionally ready for a book and a tour.

Anyway, take care.

Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx

Sexualities

Heyo Guys!
                   I know I blogged yesterday and all but I need to get something off my mind.

Sexuality seems to be this big thing. Something that you need to find. It has this huge label stuck on it. 

Do we need to get that label and stick it on ourselves? No.

Personally, I'm a demisexual. 

(Demisexuals are those who “do not experience sexual attraction unless they form a strong emotional connection with someone,” and it is “more commonly seen in but by no means confined to romantic relationships.”) 

I also know I'm straight. 

Do you ever get them moments when you have a flash of being in love/kissing with the opposite gender? 

If you do I know you're struggle and I want you to. I'm 100% sure I'm a hetrosexual, but it's human to be curious. You never know till you try. I'm a young lady, and I know I'm not sexually confused, just curious. If you are, don't worry. You have your entire life to find it and really you matter, not your sexuality.

Our sexualities do not define us. They do not make us, us. 

We're born with them, like a birth mark. Sometimes, we hate them and try to hide them under clothes. Other express them, show how it makes them unique. 

And sometime's we're confused about what they actually are.

People will judge you on them, but in reality. They haven't realised they have a birthmark too.

I'm sorry if you're going through this struggle  But what I say is don't struggle. Let it happen. Let the corse of your life guide you. Not society. Not people's view's. Not your school. Just, you. And when you find it, embrace it. Love you for you, not your label. Rip your label off and be yourself. Be your sexuality, your person, your mind and your heart.

Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx

Seeing Attempted Homicide!

Heyo Guys!
                    Today, I want to talk about homicide!

Nope, this isn't going to be educational in anyway. It's just a anecdote.

So anyway, on Monday someone at my school was almost brutally murdered. Like right next to me.

Me and 3 of my friends were sat at school, eating our dinner and minding our own business. We sit at the back of the canteen and most of the tables around us were empty since it was coming to the end of lunch. About 2 tables down a bunch of year 11s sit and they're like the d**khead year 11s.

We were talking on our table and all of a sudden this blonde dude starts shout at a slightly smaller brunette. Next thing I know the blonde one grabs hold of the brunette and throws him into the side tables, then into the table on up from us.

Causing my friend 'ABBA' to pap himself and jump out of his socks.

The blonde throws the lad into the side-wall tables again and the brunette starts to lose his balanced so the blonde throws him to the hard ground. Right next to our table.

Next thing I know the blonde starts kicking the living hell out of this guys side. Then he jumps on his rib cage a couple times.

(When I say jump I mean like yano when you go to a party and at the end everyone is trying to pop the balloons? And when you keep of foot on the ground and lift your other leg as high as you can and then you thrust it down on-top of the balloon with all your might? Well, yeah thats what I mean.)

Then he moves to his head. He jumps up and down. Over and over and over again. My friend 'Mae' was shell-shocked. 'Nana' bursted into tears and I just stared, imagining this dudes head caving in after one more kick and blood going everywhere. We couldn't do anything since he was like twice the size of us and could of easily killed us...

By this point the dinner ladies we're  going "Oh, get off him. Stop that."

And I'm sat there like 'dude, this lad is trying to smash this guys head in. He's not fighting. He's trying to kill him. And you're sat there telling them to stop?"

Then, the blonde gets dragged away, and he's kicking the brunette in the side of the head as he's being restrained.

Then some randomer jumps on a table and starts screaming at another person and the teacher drag him off and everyone was just like :o

Afterwards, the boy got taking into hospital but got an isolation for 'being in a fight'. Yep because almost being killed is getting in a fight.

The blonde got expelled. Expelled. He attempted homicide and got expelled. WTF

So yeah, I'll have to have therapy for a while but oh well!

How would you react? Tell me in the comments!

Take care.

Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx