Dealing With Depression

Heyo Guys!
   
                   This post is about the big D, the D which people are scared to talk about the big- wait. Get your minds out of the gutters! Not that!

Right so in all seriousness I'm talking about depression. I'd also like to thank Pointless Girl for suggesting this blog post (also her blog is amazing, please check it out :p) , although I've not been to the doctors yet (I will still blog about what happens) I want to give a few tips for dealing with it and having an understanding of it.

For starters, if you can't put depression into words this how I like to put it;
Depression is like drowning. But instead of reaching the bottom you just keep sinking. And instead of a weight on your feet you have this monster. It's made of smoke and clings onto your neck choking you even though your drowning at the same time, dragging you down to the abyss. And the light from the surface gets smaller, and smaller. And probably the worst thing is that everyone watching you sink saying "just swim" because they think you can breath.

And even then that probably doesn't sum up how horrible depression actually is.

Now, this post isn't going to be "oh it's fine you'll get better! :D I believe in you!" because although it's nice to say that you still have to get through it until it starts getting better. Depression is something that you can sleep off, it's not having an off day where you don't want to talk to someone. It's much worst than that.

If you think you have depression try and identify it:
NHS article
NHS depression test

If you are already suffering from depression or you believe you have it tell someone. And I know you hear this everyday and it's such a clique to say. But if you haven't already, try. Work your way down the list:
-Parents
-Close family members
-Close friends
-School
-A doctor
I don't mean tell everyone you know but if you really, really, feel like you can't tell your parents for whatever reason you may have move down the list. Can't tell close family? Tell a close friend. You see what I mean?


I also understand some of you may not have the confidence or cannot put your emotions into words. So if this is the case write it down. I suggested this to someone it the past and honestly  I think its the best thing. Take some time to write your feelings on a piece of paper, think about what you exactly want to get across and write it all down. Say to your parents/doctor etc whats on it is something important and if you don't want for them to read it in front if you can leave the room for a bit. Think about it, all you have to do is past them a piece of paper. It'll take courage but once you do it and the panic of reading it is over you'll have a massive weight lifted from your shoulders.

While we're on the topic of doctors, some are shit. I know this from the first and last time I went for anxiety. But don't give up hope, you're not alone. Someone will be there to help you, you just have to keep looking.

Here's some links if you want to take some time to check them out and see if they help:

The Fleeting Little Life of Peter Wright
This is a short film about suicide, and trust me it seems harsh at first but seriously watch all of it and it makes you think and helped me out a lot.

Feel Good 101: Depression
A series done by emma blackery. The videos helped me a lot, especially this one. Highly recommend.

You Are Not Alone
A master tumblr post full of links.

What's Up?
This is an extremely good app for dealing with depression, anxiety, stress or anger. You can use it anywhere and is amazing. (If you have an android just type it in google play.).

Mental Health Masterpost
Another Tumblr mast post full of things to distract you, calm you and help you.

The Truth about Depression BBC
I've never seen this but I'm about to watch it. This will give you a better understanding of depression.

The Comfort Spot
I've mentioned this before but I'd like to bring it up again. This website allows you create an account and to wind down, make you feel better and forget all your problems.

Some personal experience: I like you put my headphones on and listen to your favourite songs and eat chocolate. Now, I'm not saying stress eat but chocolate contains Tryptophan which is also found in antidepressants, making you feel happier. Watch a film, just forget about the world for a moment. If you want a film suggestion- any studio ghibli films. Epically Totoro, one of my favourite films. 
You can watch them here-
MovieTube 
or
Kiss Anime

Also, don't push people away, I know when you feel like crap you want to be alone but a hug or a visit from a friend can make you feel so much.

I know this isn't my usual blog style but I feel like this is important to address. Please know that I'm always here for you guys if you want my advice. I love all of you <3

Take care and please stay strong.

Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx

Updates

Heyo Guys!
                   I've realised in the past couple posts I've not really updated you guys on my life and where it's at now. And obviously I don't want to leave you guys in the dark. That's not what this blog's about!

So, for starters I'm moving up a year on Monday! Like I've said my school does this weird thing where we move up a year before the holidays start. So I start "July Curriculum" on Monday the 29th, which I'm not too fussed about. It's only the 4 hours of Spanish which might make me livid...

Secondly, it's my birthday in a month (30th of July)! I'm supposed to be getting a camera, ukulele and some other things. Would you like a haul after? Idk what I'm doing yet but I'm positive I'll blog about all of it and just about birthdays in general.

Also, as some of you know I have anxiety. I'm going to the doctors next week for it and also to see abut depression. I understand it's not the best thing to bring up but maybe I could give you some tips after I've had my visit?

I'd also like to note I've been late with blog posts since I've had exams this weeks, which are just mocks but I still had to revise and stuff. So, sorry about that. I should be getting back again though.

I think that's about it? I've probably got more stuff but yano, I'm forgetful. I'll probably go back and edit this if anything new happens/ I remember :p

Take care.

Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx

ANNOUNCEMENT

Heyo Guys,
                  So ignore the last post, wasn't really a good idea now I think about it.

Anyway, I have an announcement! I don't know if you want to hear about or whatever but I'll tell you anyway.

Soooooooooo, I have a few things on my bucket list and about a year and a half away I'm going to tick now thing off. And I know 15 months seems like ages but something tells me it'll fly by. Plus I just couldn't bare to tell you. So here it goes...

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I'M GOING TO NEW YORK AND WASHINGTON!!!!!!!!

I can't believe it! And I don't know how I'll be able to contain my excitement! It's a school trip thing and we'll be doing everything. I list you the stuff from the letter;
" The key details about the planned trip:

• 7 days and 6 nights
• Departure on 21 October 2016
• Return on 27 October 2016

The price includes:

• Return Flights
• Airport transfer in New York
• 3 nights at the YMCA Westside
• 3x continental breakfast in New York
• 1 meal at Bubba Gump Shrimp Co Restaurant 
• 3 corse mean including soft drink at Ellen Stardust Diner
• 2 course meal with drinks at Planet Hollywood
• 2 nights at the Harrington Hotel
• 2x continental buffet breakfast at Hotel Harrington
• Main corse plus dessert with soft drink at Hard Rock Cafe

Activities included in cost of trip are:

• Entrance to Empire State Building
• Visit to Statue of Liberty
• Visit to World Trade Centre
• Guided walking tour of downtown Manhattan or Financial District
• Tour of NBC Studios
• Broadway theatre tickets (Show TBA)
• Entrance to Gettysburg Military Park including guide
• 4 hour tour of Washington
• Tour of White House (subject to availability)
• Airport transfer to Washington "

We're going to be loads of other things too, that's just what the letter's saying we're doing for definite. I can't wait, imagine the blog posts I'll do for you! I know it's a while away but most of the places have free internet so I'll try blogging everyday.

So, what do you think about this? Have you ever been to New York/Washington?

Take care.

Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx

Art!

Heyo Guys!
                  See, for once I kept my word and I'm actually blogging! Who wouldda know?

Anyway, I've been sketch a lot these past few days and I'm running out of ideas! I've fallen back in love with art after the stress of art course work disappeared and I'm happy to draw again. I'd also like to do something linking with you guys. I think it would be a good idea for me to get some suggestions from you. It'll be a completely personal drawing/sketch and I'll do it as best I can. Just pop a comment saying what you would like me to draw for you and I'd happily do it. I'll do a blog post around next week with your blog link, your suggestion and a picture of the drawing itself. I would really appreciate it since I'm bored like no other XD

Also, I have a huge announcement (imo) for next week's blog too, I think you'll quite like to find out about it.

Sorry it's only short but there will be a lot coming next week hopefully!

Take care.

Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx

Holding Fugitive

Heyo Guys!
                   Woah woah woah! I didn't actually like break into a high security prison using spoons to bust out my mass murderer uncle and know he's hiding under my bed (pfffttt like I would actually do that... whaaaaa you on about theres a human like figure under me, whaaaaa).

No, but I did help Fandom. I'll skip the backstory, basically she got into an argument with her mum and ran out. West was there along with Fandom's boyfriend 'Jammy' so we all treked down to the secret lake and hid for like 3 hours. Once Jammy had to leave we walked back down to the park near my house and this is when we planned holding a fugitive in my back garden.

Step 1- Ask for Permission from Government Secret Service
West: Mum can we get the tent.?
West mum: Ye

Me: Mum can I have some mates over, Fandom's only ran away from home and now we want to hold a criminal in hiding.
My mum: Ye

Step 2: Gather Super Spy Equipment
*West and I break into her house and steal a pink and green 1 person tent*

Step 3: Sneak Highly Wanted Person into Base
*Lose Fandom when we get to park*

Yeah... This was when it went to crap.

So we trek to the park with a freaking tent and Fandom's gone. Annnnnnndd then West gets a message from Fandom's mum saying if we don't know where she is she's calling the po po. Now this is when step 4 put into action:

Step 4:Abandon everything. Run. Run Now.

I pegged it down to find Fandom and when I do I start telling her to ring her nan and make sure our butts don't get shut down. As Fandom's on the phone her mum swerves round the corner and she wasn't pleased. Like at all.

Step 5: Well. shit.

Fandom storms off avoiding all contact with her mother because she was done with everything and I just walked. I did not want to freak out and stand there like a duck. Her mums screaming. Fandom has done caring. I hide behind a pole. More screaming. Fandom sits in the middle of the field and has officially gave up all f**ks.

I then got shouted over by her mum and she had an operation on her leg and had to leave Fandom's brother at home to come find her. (Again we'd been out for like 4 hours now). She really wanted Fandom to get in the car and that otherwise the po po will kill us all. So I had to talk to Fandom and she got up and gave her phone to West so it wouldn't be taken from her. She runs to her mum and still refuses to get in the car and me and west walk to my house. 

About 15 minutes later when we were building the tent Fandom's mum finds out and asked for her phone etc. Once she left my dad just goes.
"Ohhh what banta's gone off??"

Just so you all know we're all find and we laugh about it so yeah! Have you guys ever done anything like this? 

PS. sorry for not blogging, I'm still blog at the weekend too.

Take care.

Little Old Me, in my Little Old World. Xxx