The C Word

Heyo Guys! 

                 Before I continue writing I want to stress this is not a happy post. This is probably the exact opposite and I want to put a trigger warning for terminal illnesses on this post. 

So, a couple weeks back you might have recalled that I said my mum was ill and that I wouldn't go into detail. But since then we found out some stuff. I don't want to beat around the bush so basically my mum has cancer. Stage 3 ovarian cancer, germ cell tumours. And she's starting chemo tomorrow.  

It's quite treatable and with enough strong chemo, the rumours will decrease or disappear in at least 4 months. But to be honest I don't know if the 'C' word I titled this post is cancer or chemotherapy. But I want to make this at least helpful in some way. So here's the stages you go through when someone you love gets diagnosed with cancer. 

1) They won't say what it is exactly:

Before the actual diagnosis, doctors will mess you about massively and you'll be told it's 12 other things before they sit down and tell you it's cancer. This isn't what happened everytime but often people speculate it's something else before they move onto the big things. 

2) It's cancer

The first thing that will come to you is "death". Cancer has a huge stigma which states that as soon as you get it you're dying. Luckily for me the process happened gradually so it didn't really hit me that hard. When you find out, you'll be in shock and you won't know what to say. 

3) You realise it's cancer 

This is one of the hardest parts. When it's hits you like a ton of bricks and you'll cry and you'll sob and you'll shake  at random times until you fully accept it. This normally happens the day after or maybe sooner or later. 

4) What the treatment will be 

In my case it's chemo. 5 days, every 3 weeks for at least the next 4 months. My mum will be on the drip but it can be done with tables or radiotherapy. Depending how strong it will be will depend how server the effects will be. My mum is going to loose all her hair and since the chemo is really strong, it will basically destroy her. Thinking about the side effects will tear you apart so please try not to dig yourself into a well you can't escape. 

That's as far as we've got. If someone you love has been diagnosed with cancer I suggest you think about it scientifically. When you find out how terrible chemo will be, know it will help dramatically. Cancer is just a thing, a dangerous thing granted, but you will learn to deal with it, even if it seems impossible at the start. 

I'll make sure to keep you updated every now and then on my Twitter and on here. 

Take care. 

Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx