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Sunday, 5 April 2015

A boy...

Heyo Guys!
                   Today I wanted to blog about something I've never really blogged about... Boys.

Right, before I go on I want to clarify that I don't like relationships. As you should know I'm Demi and I personally believe being in a relationship at my age is completely pointless- it's just something you'll mess with and then be heart broken cos your 'lover' is eating animal crackers with a year 7.

However, although I look at love it this sad way- I think I have a crush.

This is something I hate to think I have. I've never had a real crush so I'm not an expert on the subject. That's why I'm not sure if I actually like him.

To be honest no one at my school likes him. He's done things in the past which have made people very hostile towards him. I don't really know about that subject because I don't hear gossip.

I'll give you some pros and cons about him:

Pros;
-He sticks up for me. I haven't spoke to him that many times but when he asked why I was so quite I just shrugged and he asked if I get bullied and for the first time, I said yes. I trusted him, I told him the truth and he said he was also put in a dark place in the past where he got physically bullied and said there's always hope. He told me he'd be there even though this was the second time we properly spoke.

-He's opinionated. I'm a sucker for this. I love it when someone can share there opinions in a civil manor and that's what he does.

-He makes me feel "special"? (Is that the right phrase?) He told me I looked cute and that he loved my smile. I'm insecure about that type of stuff but after he told me I had a bit more confidence and smiled a bit more.

-He shares my interests. We both like rock music and we always find something to talk about.

-He actually understands me. Like, I don't have to fake myself because he knows when I'm faking a smile etc.

-He actually likes me. Like he's wants to go out with me.

Cons;
- He's what people call a snake:
A snake is someone who you think is sincere and really nice, but then turns out to be a backstabberSomeone who acts like your best friend, but who actually is the opposite. 
Basically, within the first two weeks of being in our school (he's relatively new to the school) he went out with 4 girls. Yep.

-Everyone would know about us. He's extremely popular even though he gets a lot of hate. I don't want to be know as the girl who is going out with 'Parkin' etc. I want to be in a relationship and know that me and my boyfriend would be an object. I want to till be me with or without the person I'm going out with.

-Like I said he gets a lot of crap. He's said things in the past and he is a complete kn*b for saying it but he's a nice guy in the present. And when I mean crap I mean he gets legit death threats and gets beat up/ dragged into fights. So, I'd hate for me to put up with idiot who can't keep opinions to themselves.

-Not only does he like me he also like another girl as plan B. Even if I decide to give him a chance he'd probably be with someone else.

- Again, I personally so see a point in being in a relationship. I have my own worries and problems and a boyfriend may help or may tip me off the scale of a mental break down.

-One of my 'friends' jumped to conclusions while I was telling her about this dilemma and rushed off to tell him I won't go out with him.

Have you guys got any advice for me? Should I try it out? I'll keep you updated on the situation!

Stay strong!

Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx





3 comments:

  1. 1) I love rock music, what bands do you like?
    2) This guy sounds amazing and I see your point in relationship and have the same opinion
    3) When it comes to things like this I guess you have to be honest with yourself. Do you see yourself with him in a week, month or more? I know it sounds odd but you have to think of a future between you two and think of consequences you could get.
    4) try and sit next to him in classes and if you already do try and talk to him a little (maybe a new rock CD album has just been released?)
    5) Tell your friend a little bit more about the crush and tell her you are unsure what to do and tell her that telling him you didn't want to go out was an uncool decision which she shouldn't have done (unless you told her to)

    I hope this helps! You sound like an amazing person and I love your blog, it gives me happiness every time you post!

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    1. My favourite band's Fall Out Boy but I'm a fan of P!atd, mcr,muse and I'm liking of Monster and Men at the moment! Thank you so much for the advice, I was stuck at first but your comment i think will put me in the right direction. and also I'm so happy you enjoy my blog and I'll always post if it makes you guys happy thank you so much! xx

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    2. Please post more you are my favourite blog and omg same!! Include my chemical romance into the mix of Rick bands and we have have the same favorites!

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