Heyo Guys!
How've you all been? How was your Christmas? I hope you all a wonderful time!
However, I know that some of you will be quite stressed at the moment, as for some reason schools find the idea of having exams in January a great idea. Well it's not. From finals in university to the mountains of homework to the revision for mocks, you have to do at the most festive time! The person who decided that was definitely smoking something highly illegal...
After the pigs in blankets are digested and you've lost that special connection with tinsel, you have work staring right and you and no time. I have like 50 pieces of homework and 6 mocks to revise for within the next four day, and I wish I was over exaggerating. My best guess is that many of you can relate to that. So here's my advice for you all.
1) free a day so you can get most of it done.
Time is important, so free a day so you can organise yourself and get most of it done. Stick on a relaxing playlist on Spotify, and do the most important homework first. Homework first then studying, because while you're doing homework, you're technically revising too so you kill two birds with one stone.
2)Get a friend to help you
As I'm writing this, Fandom is coming over to help me revise and get all my stuff done. Not only does it calm me down having my best friend over, but it also motivates me. Having Fandom over keeps me going and she knows how to help me in these scenarios when I get too worked up.
3) Study from past work
This one could be dependent on if you keep your old full books of work but if you do, I find this really works. Grab a highlighter and go through your old school book and go over the techniques you used and the information you put it. Fandom told me she doesn't actually revise and I got really confused because she does so well in school. She said, instead of panicking and cramming information in, she links what she did in lesson, to the thing they were learning. For example,she links trigonometry with playing squares with everyone on her table. Granted, you should actually be doing work in lesson, but writing down the fun things you did in lesson next to you work in your books, you should remember them more easily.
4)Do not stress!!
The godforsaken words that everyone hates! It does really annoy me when people say this. Like how am I supposed to be not stressed when I have all of the responsibilities?!?! Well, I'm not saying it like calm down and do no work, because that'll only stress you out more. Do your revision and work in intervals, 50 minutes working, 10 minutes down time. Set a timer on your phone so you can go back to it. This will make sure you dont overwork yourself. Also, before you sleep, read or watch youtube, meditate or whatever. Let your mind forget about the worries.
When it's late at night and you cant do anymore work, there's no point worrying about it. My mum was talking to me last night and she said when she felt down like when my dad's on night shifts), one of her favourite things to do, was listen to the rain. I'm also reading girl online on tour at the moment and in it there's a point in it where she says she likes the rain because she imagines it's her anxiety running to the bottom of the window. So that's my top tip, listen to rain!
Anyway, a little update for you all. I've had a meeting at school with the nurse before we broke up for christmas about my anxiety and she was really nice. I'm having another meeting with her on the 6th. She gave me some booklets to fill out and she took notes and what have you, and she took them back to her office and is going to speak to her colleagues about me. It's all rather strange to be honest but it looks like this could be going in the right direction. I would definitely try speaking to a school nurse if you have one and you need help with depression or anxiety, they're really lovely and trained with this kind of thing. I also created a twitter account, which you can follow here - https://twitter.com/xXlittleoldmeXx if you like ^-^
Also, it new year eve?! what?! 2015 was both the longest and shortest year, and I hope 2016 is going to our year! I wish you a lovely night and to enjoy it right down to 12:01 on the first of January. So, like the joke literally every person makes, see you next year!
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Thursday, 31 December 2015
Friday, 18 December 2015
Top 10 Christmas Tunes!
Heyo Guys!
Thought I'd get more festive with today's post and do my top favourite Christmas songs! Here we go:
Number 10) Do they know it's Christmas
I love band aid's spin on the festive tone of this song but spreads a serious message to everyone. It'll get you singing the lyrics with all your heart but teaches you how the less fortunate spread their Christmas. I just had to leave a spot on the list for this song!
Number 9) Jingle Bell Rock
As you've seen before on this blog, I have done a dance to this with my school. Although I had two left feet, I actually really enjoyed the time and I can't help but reminisce on all those funny memories with my drama friends attempting to dance. It hits a personal spot and I always jump up to dance to it no matter how bad I am!
Number 8) Step Into Christmas
Not gonna lie, I know all the lyrics to this because I always sing it to myself. It just one of those songs that get stuck in your head! It's so merry and amazing and fun and Urghghhh! I have a tendency to drag my sister into the middle of the living room and jump about to it haha.
Number 7) Thankful Heart
This belongs to one of the best Christmas films: The Muppets Christmas Carol. I watch it every year and my family gets extremly annoyed when I'm quoting the lines over the actual film, but when this song comes on I'm surprised they don't kill me.
Number 6) fairytale of New York
Yet another classic! The instructions to this song are pretty simple: mumble the starting lyrics and mope around on the stop, then grab a friend, start belting out the upbeat lyrics together while miming action and dancing crazily. Pretty simple. I don't think it's Christmas without this tbh.
Number 5) All I want for Christmas
It would be illegal not to put this in here. The many covers I've heard over the years (my favourite being dodies just saying) and the many ways people song this tune, it unbelievable. Sure once I hear it I can't help but think my ears are going to actually bleed due to it being the zillionth I've heard in in the past week, I still find myself singing it. It wouldn't be Christmas without it. Simple.
Number 4) Christmas Lights
A less festive and more dismal song. Granted it won't raises any spirits, but it beautiful. Coldplay does their natural thing and performs a truly glorious song. It makes you get lost in thought. The structure behind is lovely too. Upbeat parts, heart felt parts, classic parts. It's wonderful.
Number 3) merry Xmas
This is a song that brings back so many memories due to it being the song we always sung after we did our Christmas plays in primary school. It makes me happy and gives me a warm feeling remembering the amazing times I had every year at primary. It's my prime example of Christmas.
Number 2) A Spaceman came traveling
I legitimately cry 3/5 times this comes on. It's so pretty and lovely and I could never say anything bad about it. One of my friends preformed this in a choir and recorded it for people to buy for a charity. He was heart broken with it and said it sound horrible, when I heard him; I cried. fandom and I gave him a standing ovation (which I'm not sure you're allowed to do in church. Oops).
Number 1) Carol of the Bells
My actual favourite Christmas song, it is my ultimate tune to stick on. Granted when I do everyone is really confused, but oh my god; I love it. The choir boys voice are Saint like and it gives me goosebumps when they go over the "merry merry merry merry Christmas" because it's so Christmassy and amazing! It reminds me of all sort of Christmas films but mostly Harry Potter because of that one part. It's just spectacular.
And thus that concludes my list. I hope you enjoyed something a bit different! Also, I'm experimenting with adding images to my posts to spice up my layout, I hope you like it.
So what's your favourite Christmas song? Is there any that you despise? Tell me below!
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Sunday, 13 December 2015
Motivation
Hey Guys!
I'm not dead! Quick note-I'm writing this half way through cleaning my bedroom. You see, it's coming closer to christmas and everything is a bit too much. I've been so busy and it's difficult to keep up with myself. As you can see I've not done very good job at maintaining a blog and I'm sorry about that, I really am. I'm done making excuses and all that stuff, I'm just sorry.
I'm not dead! Quick note-I'm writing this half way through cleaning my bedroom. You see, it's coming closer to christmas and everything is a bit too much. I've been so busy and it's difficult to keep up with myself. As you can see I've not done very good job at maintaining a blog and I'm sorry about that, I really am. I'm done making excuses and all that stuff, I'm just sorry.
Motivation is a funny thing. It comes and goes depending on how it feels. As you can tell by my last post, I was full of it. I was organised and had everything in order. I made plans for future posts and everything. But after about a fortnight, I lose it. I stopped being so motivated and started getting busy, stressing and everything piled on.
I don't know exactly what pushed me to make this post or to re-visit my blog, but I did and I'm glad I did. This blog is a place where I'm not afraid to express myself, that's probably why it's anonymous. You guys make me feel accepted and that makes me want to try and even if a post ends up in the drafts for the rest of eternity, I'm trying. So thank you for those little sparks of motivation because it's better than nothing.
Hopefully, soon I'll post some updates about what's happened since last time I blogged. So I want to know what you've been up to. Anything interesting? Are you ready for Christmas (or other religious holiday)? Let me know ^-^
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Saturday, 7 November 2015
Missing Teachers
Heyo Guys!
My teacher has gone missing. He's dropped off the end of the earth or has run away with a pack of bears.
You see my Spanish teacher disappeared from my class about a month ago. This was extremely weird as he us the head of language and we had a load of mocks coming up. Not only this but we were supposed to be organising a trip for going to Spain to promote choosing language for A level. (Yeah i'll pass on working for people for 8 hours in blistering heat and trying to talk to people in broken Spanish thanks). He left us and literally no one know where he's gone, not even the teachers.
You see, this happened last year. Half way through the spanish course my female teacher left for about 9 months. Eventually we were taken away from the supply teacher that only knew pythagorus let alone which ending to use on "trabajar". We were given the teacher I'm supposed to have now. He a really good teacher and he was much better but my other teacher didn't turn up.
The amount of conspiracy theories were unbelievable.I heard she left, got sacked, became pregnant, tried killing herself and taking time off for depression (like really?), her brother was killed, she was killed, she went to uni, moved to spain and finally smacked the head teacher and ran off. Public school everybody. She's back now, but we still don't know where she went and why.
I really hope my teacher comes back though. He knew are class and how each of us worked. His methods of teaching were perfect for us. But now, we've been given a supply again. We have this horrible teacher with greasy blonde hair put in a ponytail and always wears the same outfit and is horrendous. Think about your least favourite teacher and how terrible are. Now imagine a thousand of them compressed into one horrible woman who's crap at teaching. Thats the one everyone calls "stringer". She will literally shout at you for everything.
I was shouted at because she stole my whiteboard. The previous class didn't wipe it properly so there we a couple word on it so she took it from me and put in on another table. So the girl next to me who I'm good acquaintances with, stood up to go get it me back. I swear down, I've never seen a person spin round so fast as stringer proceeded to start shouting for getting out our seats. She stormed over to our table and then noticed I didn't have a whiteboard and goes;
"WHY HAVENT YOU GOT A WHITEBOARD I SAID WE ARE DOING WHITEBOARD WORK. DONT YOU LISTED????" So I explained why the girl didn't do anything wrong and she took my white board so I can't write anything. So then she called me stupid because I can't write on top of writing. tbh she's the stupid one because you know these things called "board rubbers" exist :000
Honestly, it's so silly. I go to an academy and yet they can't keep our teachers in school. My PE teacher is never in lesson, my english teacher is rarely in lesson, my spanish teachers keep getting abducted by aliens.
Anyway, that's my experience. What's your teachers' like? Have any of yours disappeared? Tell me below, I love reading your comments!
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
My teacher has gone missing. He's dropped off the end of the earth or has run away with a pack of bears.
You see my Spanish teacher disappeared from my class about a month ago. This was extremely weird as he us the head of language and we had a load of mocks coming up. Not only this but we were supposed to be organising a trip for going to Spain to promote choosing language for A level. (Yeah i'll pass on working for people for 8 hours in blistering heat and trying to talk to people in broken Spanish thanks). He left us and literally no one know where he's gone, not even the teachers.
You see, this happened last year. Half way through the spanish course my female teacher left for about 9 months. Eventually we were taken away from the supply teacher that only knew pythagorus let alone which ending to use on "trabajar". We were given the teacher I'm supposed to have now. He a really good teacher and he was much better but my other teacher didn't turn up.
The amount of conspiracy theories were unbelievable.I heard she left, got sacked, became pregnant, tried killing herself and taking time off for depression (like really?), her brother was killed, she was killed, she went to uni, moved to spain and finally smacked the head teacher and ran off. Public school everybody. She's back now, but we still don't know where she went and why.
I really hope my teacher comes back though. He knew are class and how each of us worked. His methods of teaching were perfect for us. But now, we've been given a supply again. We have this horrible teacher with greasy blonde hair put in a ponytail and always wears the same outfit and is horrendous. Think about your least favourite teacher and how terrible are. Now imagine a thousand of them compressed into one horrible woman who's crap at teaching. Thats the one everyone calls "stringer". She will literally shout at you for everything.
I was shouted at because she stole my whiteboard. The previous class didn't wipe it properly so there we a couple word on it so she took it from me and put in on another table. So the girl next to me who I'm good acquaintances with, stood up to go get it me back. I swear down, I've never seen a person spin round so fast as stringer proceeded to start shouting for getting out our seats. She stormed over to our table and then noticed I didn't have a whiteboard and goes;
"WHY HAVENT YOU GOT A WHITEBOARD I SAID WE ARE DOING WHITEBOARD WORK. DONT YOU LISTED????" So I explained why the girl didn't do anything wrong and she took my white board so I can't write anything. So then she called me stupid because I can't write on top of writing. tbh she's the stupid one because you know these things called "board rubbers" exist :000
Honestly, it's so silly. I go to an academy and yet they can't keep our teachers in school. My PE teacher is never in lesson, my english teacher is rarely in lesson, my spanish teachers keep getting abducted by aliens.
Anyway, that's my experience. What's your teachers' like? Have any of yours disappeared? Tell me below, I love reading your comments!
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Thursday, 22 October 2015
Exams
Heyo Guys!
As you may know I've been through a couple of actually important exams recently and I'd like share my thoughts and experiences on them!
I noticed this half way through a history exam, coursework thingy me bobby. I don't get really bad exam stress unless it's like a spanish exam or it's super important for example. I normally just got super bored it them and tired. Then again that could be due to the fact I stay up till half 1 in the morning and wake up at 6... oops. Like, exams are important and we shouldn't slack on them but when there's the equations and the statics and the 3rd reason Hitler was a plonker and just urrrrgggghhhhh. It's just so boring! All the words just fall into the bottom of the page and I'm just sat here like: "this is a sign from the holy lord that this exam desk is not my place". I'm not as bad as Magnet who finishes her paper in 10 minutes and doddle a mona lisa on her arm and get an A*. Okay, maybe I wish I was as bad as her...
Anyway, I just can't concentrate it's like you're just there, and so is the test and the questions and you can't do anything about it. I still try though, don't get me wrong, I'll revise and get an alright grade but sometimes I can't be bothered if it's for the teacher's seating plan. Not to mention about my nervous habits.
You see when I'm doing a test, I'll fidget around and make noise. Like, a lot of noise. This isn't intentional, it's more me trying to pick up a calculator and drop it on the table for the 47th time and it actually sounds like I've throw it threw the window and killed 3 year 7s in the process. I'm terrible for it! Honestly, wether it's me sneezing and saying bless me way too loud or flipping a page and it sounding like I've just ripped apart a dictionary or trying to hold in a cough and then exploding with noise and chocking and it's just not very nice.
Also, teacher's just hate me. Like, no please leave because I've getting my 8th pencil out if my pocket as my 7th has just rolled under the table and I'm too awkward to pick it up. I'm not getting my phone. I'm a good kid, okay! Stop looking at me like I've just flipped the table and set fire to my exam sheets. I mean, don't even get my started on cheating. I'll be sat doing some 2003 science test and literally the kid opposite me will take my book let and copy my answers. Thing is, if this is a classroom, absolutely no one cares. No one gets shouted at and hey, I'm on good terms with everyone as I let them copy my work. (PSA don't actually cheat, you will be instantly disqualified if caught by the right person, also, you need to give your own effort and try your best!)
Okay, okay, I might be exaggerating just a little bit. So, what's your experiences with exams/class tests? This is just my perspective. Maybe your school or country does them differently? Tell me! I love hearing about your point of view!
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
As you may know I've been through a couple of actually important exams recently and I'd like share my thoughts and experiences on them!
I noticed this half way through a history exam, coursework thingy me bobby. I don't get really bad exam stress unless it's like a spanish exam or it's super important for example. I normally just got super bored it them and tired. Then again that could be due to the fact I stay up till half 1 in the morning and wake up at 6... oops. Like, exams are important and we shouldn't slack on them but when there's the equations and the statics and the 3rd reason Hitler was a plonker and just urrrrgggghhhhh. It's just so boring! All the words just fall into the bottom of the page and I'm just sat here like: "this is a sign from the holy lord that this exam desk is not my place". I'm not as bad as Magnet who finishes her paper in 10 minutes and doddle a mona lisa on her arm and get an A*. Okay, maybe I wish I was as bad as her...
Anyway, I just can't concentrate it's like you're just there, and so is the test and the questions and you can't do anything about it. I still try though, don't get me wrong, I'll revise and get an alright grade but sometimes I can't be bothered if it's for the teacher's seating plan. Not to mention about my nervous habits.
You see when I'm doing a test, I'll fidget around and make noise. Like, a lot of noise. This isn't intentional, it's more me trying to pick up a calculator and drop it on the table for the 47th time and it actually sounds like I've throw it threw the window and killed 3 year 7s in the process. I'm terrible for it! Honestly, wether it's me sneezing and saying bless me way too loud or flipping a page and it sounding like I've just ripped apart a dictionary or trying to hold in a cough and then exploding with noise and chocking and it's just not very nice.
Also, teacher's just hate me. Like, no please leave because I've getting my 8th pencil out if my pocket as my 7th has just rolled under the table and I'm too awkward to pick it up. I'm not getting my phone. I'm a good kid, okay! Stop looking at me like I've just flipped the table and set fire to my exam sheets. I mean, don't even get my started on cheating. I'll be sat doing some 2003 science test and literally the kid opposite me will take my book let and copy my answers. Thing is, if this is a classroom, absolutely no one cares. No one gets shouted at and hey, I'm on good terms with everyone as I let them copy my work. (PSA don't actually cheat, you will be instantly disqualified if caught by the right person, also, you need to give your own effort and try your best!)
Okay, okay, I might be exaggerating just a little bit. So, what's your experiences with exams/class tests? This is just my perspective. Maybe your school or country does them differently? Tell me! I love hearing about your point of view!
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Saturday, 10 October 2015
I actually want to do a sport?
Heyo Guys!
I'm actually done apologising for not blogging because I always do it and lets face it, theres no point in saying sorry aha.
So, now that my writing block has stopped for once, I have an operation from quite a weird place. A couple days ago in P.E we started trampolinging and I very quickly fell in love with it. Sure, I got extremely anxious having to get up in front of all the girls in my group (the most popular girls are in my group) and jump but I think I'm okay at it to be honest. However, one of the girls does it after school along with GCSE P.E (yeah, I'll pass on that one thanks) and like oh my god! she is sooo good at it. Her form is beautiful (oops my queer's showing aha). If you've ever watched an anime called "free!", there's a character called Rae and he joined the swim club because he thinks it's beautiful. I relate to this because I've never been flexible and I'm to award to do a team sport. Trampolining is a simple but elegant sport, which is independent and something that will keep me in shape.
I've asked my parents if I'd be able to stay at a club near by, and they said they'd consider it! I was going to start running but living in northern England and trying to not get bullied by some lads in hoodies (who are also stealing your neighbours bin for some reason) is extremely difficult. Something, like this sport will be therapeutic, I hope. I'll meet new people, even if I have a mental breakdown trying to say hello and I'll pick up a hobby that will help me become healthier as of now I can't run to the bus stop without coughing up my lungs. Plus, wouldn't it be awesome to stand up on the trampoline in front of everyone in my P.E lesson and be good at it instead of panicking and almost fly off its springy deathtrap bed?!
It'll take some hard work, but it's better late than never! I think I'll try stretches every day for a while until we actually get some details on the club. It's probably no gonna happen as I have the energy span of an actual potato but I'll try my hardest.
What about you? Do any of you like or do any sports?
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
I'm actually done apologising for not blogging because I always do it and lets face it, theres no point in saying sorry aha.
So, now that my writing block has stopped for once, I have an operation from quite a weird place. A couple days ago in P.E we started trampolinging and I very quickly fell in love with it. Sure, I got extremely anxious having to get up in front of all the girls in my group (the most popular girls are in my group) and jump but I think I'm okay at it to be honest. However, one of the girls does it after school along with GCSE P.E (yeah, I'll pass on that one thanks) and like oh my god! she is sooo good at it. Her form is beautiful (oops my queer's showing aha). If you've ever watched an anime called "free!", there's a character called Rae and he joined the swim club because he thinks it's beautiful. I relate to this because I've never been flexible and I'm to award to do a team sport. Trampolining is a simple but elegant sport, which is independent and something that will keep me in shape.
I've asked my parents if I'd be able to stay at a club near by, and they said they'd consider it! I was going to start running but living in northern England and trying to not get bullied by some lads in hoodies (who are also stealing your neighbours bin for some reason) is extremely difficult. Something, like this sport will be therapeutic, I hope. I'll meet new people, even if I have a mental breakdown trying to say hello and I'll pick up a hobby that will help me become healthier as of now I can't run to the bus stop without coughing up my lungs. Plus, wouldn't it be awesome to stand up on the trampoline in front of everyone in my P.E lesson and be good at it instead of panicking and almost fly off its springy deathtrap bed?!
It'll take some hard work, but it's better late than never! I think I'll try stretches every day for a while until we actually get some details on the club. It's probably no gonna happen as I have the energy span of an actual potato but I'll try my hardest.
What about you? Do any of you like or do any sports?
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Tuesday, 15 September 2015
Productivity
Heyo Guys!
Schools been very stressful this week. Adjusting back to a routine is hard and difficult, epically when you're getting back to exams and so one. However, returning to something (thats compulsory) is okay at time. Like I said, returning to a routine takes time, but its easy to improve it.
Recently, my productivity levels are much higher than before. Since I've started school again, Ive had to change from "auto pilot" to "manual". Nothing's automatic as I've had 6 weeks so Ive managed to change my habits.
The first thing i noticed was that I stopped biting my nails. Now, my anxiety certainly doesn't help when it comes to nail biting, but somehow, I've managed to grow them out. I know this isn't huge but it's something I've never been able to do before now. Furthermore, Ive become a lot neater. My favourite thing to do is to add things to my bedroom, like fairy lights, candles etc. (I actually strip clean my bedroom. 3 hours of cleaning was so worth it!).
When school started I thought I'd become incapable to work and wake up and all that jazz. But I did! Sure, I still hate school with a burning passion but hey, it's almost over right? I think I changed my lifestyle by starting to wake up at 6 (only on weekdays, like i hibernate on weekends), my school starts at 8:25, but I meet Fandom and some of her friends at 7:20 at her house and mop about outside for a bit. It's given me a little bit more time to get ready and it's defiantly let me appreciate sleep waaaaaaayyy more. In addition I've booked my week full of after school clubs. My enrichment timetable goes like this:
- Monday, first hour- art/ any other club I'd like to got to and second hour- drama (I've been doing drama since year 7)
-Tuesday, staff meeting day (normally I don't go, but if meetings are off I go to art)
-Wednesday, music (compulsory, as I have music lessons)
-Thursday, art (also compulsory as it's my option)
-Friday, Spanish (also compulsory, schools a b*tch)
Also, on the topic of school, Ive been way more organised and it is amazing!
Hear me out here. What the number one reason you organise and make a home work plan? you literally have an excuse if you don't completely finish a big piece of homework. Now, I'm not saying 'omg never do homwrk it sooooooo boring lol get bad grade!!!1!!1", like a teacher can't say you didn't put in the effort for a extremely big piece of homework when you've made a plan. Plus, it takes soon much anxiety off your shoulders. If you do the maths right, it becomes so easy to set times and honestly having your life organised is so nice.
Now, to talk about hobbies. I love doing all sorts of activities. I'm very creative when it comes to my interests. My love for instruments has blossomed. I did quit violin about 3/4 month ago, but that's because playing it was like a hour and I didn't find it fun anymore. I had a bad moment where i just hated playing piano because I didn't think I was good. But practice makes perfect! Ive taken 20 minutes out my day to play my favourite pieces and do finger exercises (that sounds dirty >.<). I also do around 30 minutes of ukulele (maybe? i just play most of the time). Leading from this, O really like going out and taking photos. I love photography and hopefully my mum will get me an online course to do. I think is you enjoy photography and writing etc, going to town is amazing! The 70p to get a return on the train is well worth snapping some amazing photos and relaxing in a coffee/book shop.
And finally, healthy eating. This ones a bit on the scales for me (see what I did there? no? Ill let myself out..) I know I'm pretty skinny and have a healthy BMI (i hope) but some places on my body I'm not the happiest about. I'm not saying you're not beautiful how you are, oh god no. It's just I feel more confident to say I ate a salad last night instead of burger. Plus, I can't run up the stairs without getting a stitch so exercise and good food makes me feel so much better about myself and its great for my well being anyway.
I hope this can be an inspiration to you and you'll become more productive as time goes on! But then again, don't change for anyone.
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Schools been very stressful this week. Adjusting back to a routine is hard and difficult, epically when you're getting back to exams and so one. However, returning to something (thats compulsory) is okay at time. Like I said, returning to a routine takes time, but its easy to improve it.
Recently, my productivity levels are much higher than before. Since I've started school again, Ive had to change from "auto pilot" to "manual". Nothing's automatic as I've had 6 weeks so Ive managed to change my habits.
The first thing i noticed was that I stopped biting my nails. Now, my anxiety certainly doesn't help when it comes to nail biting, but somehow, I've managed to grow them out. I know this isn't huge but it's something I've never been able to do before now. Furthermore, Ive become a lot neater. My favourite thing to do is to add things to my bedroom, like fairy lights, candles etc. (I actually strip clean my bedroom. 3 hours of cleaning was so worth it!).
When school started I thought I'd become incapable to work and wake up and all that jazz. But I did! Sure, I still hate school with a burning passion but hey, it's almost over right? I think I changed my lifestyle by starting to wake up at 6 (only on weekdays, like i hibernate on weekends), my school starts at 8:25, but I meet Fandom and some of her friends at 7:20 at her house and mop about outside for a bit. It's given me a little bit more time to get ready and it's defiantly let me appreciate sleep waaaaaaayyy more. In addition I've booked my week full of after school clubs. My enrichment timetable goes like this:
- Monday, first hour- art/ any other club I'd like to got to and second hour- drama (I've been doing drama since year 7)
-Tuesday, staff meeting day (normally I don't go, but if meetings are off I go to art)
-Wednesday, music (compulsory, as I have music lessons)
-Thursday, art (also compulsory as it's my option)
-Friday, Spanish (also compulsory, schools a b*tch)
Also, on the topic of school, Ive been way more organised and it is amazing!
Hear me out here. What the number one reason you organise and make a home work plan? you literally have an excuse if you don't completely finish a big piece of homework. Now, I'm not saying 'omg never do homwrk it sooooooo boring lol get bad grade!!!1!!1", like a teacher can't say you didn't put in the effort for a extremely big piece of homework when you've made a plan. Plus, it takes soon much anxiety off your shoulders. If you do the maths right, it becomes so easy to set times and honestly having your life organised is so nice.
Now, to talk about hobbies. I love doing all sorts of activities. I'm very creative when it comes to my interests. My love for instruments has blossomed. I did quit violin about 3/4 month ago, but that's because playing it was like a hour and I didn't find it fun anymore. I had a bad moment where i just hated playing piano because I didn't think I was good. But practice makes perfect! Ive taken 20 minutes out my day to play my favourite pieces and do finger exercises (that sounds dirty >.<). I also do around 30 minutes of ukulele (maybe? i just play most of the time). Leading from this, O really like going out and taking photos. I love photography and hopefully my mum will get me an online course to do. I think is you enjoy photography and writing etc, going to town is amazing! The 70p to get a return on the train is well worth snapping some amazing photos and relaxing in a coffee/book shop.
And finally, healthy eating. This ones a bit on the scales for me (see what I did there? no? Ill let myself out..) I know I'm pretty skinny and have a healthy BMI (i hope) but some places on my body I'm not the happiest about. I'm not saying you're not beautiful how you are, oh god no. It's just I feel more confident to say I ate a salad last night instead of burger. Plus, I can't run up the stairs without getting a stitch so exercise and good food makes me feel so much better about myself and its great for my well being anyway.
I hope this can be an inspiration to you and you'll become more productive as time goes on! But then again, don't change for anyone.
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Saturday, 5 September 2015
Back to School Banter
Heyo Guys!
As I've said in the past I started school on the 3rd and well the first day was a bit eventful. Since I've hung off the whole 'life blog' aspect, I thought I'll tell you about my first day.
So, to start off I woke up at 6am which was really weird for me since on a school day I normally wake up at 7. I didn't the whole standard getting ready. There was also a moment where I died because I thought I lost my tie and it was behind my blazer. Yep. Thats me.
Also, is it just me or are shoes actually tricks? Like seriously, my mum bought me some new school shoes and I tried the on and they fit perfectly. I'm talking, comfort, style and the perfect fit. And every time once it comes to actually wearing them on the school day BOOM! shoe is a shapeshifter. I ended the days with stuffed tissue in them because they were too big, blisters, cramped toes (because my toes are weird okay), scuff marks and to be honest I would've been better with 2 squares of carpet and some elastic bands around my feet.
Anyway, I met Fandom and we walked to school and then sat in said school for an hour before lessons started. Fandom's much more popular than I am and I'm just acquaintances with, so without 15 minutes I was on my own and met with about 2 of my friends that had arrived.
After an hour my year was sent down to assembly were I freaked out outside because the most horrible people sat beside me. The lass was saying the schools worst than prison to the lad next to me because she was sent there after beating some kid up (yep thats public school) while the lad on the other side of me got really angry because a teacher told us to line up properly. My head teacher kept going on and on about how we were lucky and how our head of year won't take crap and shell upset us and that if we dont feel extremely lucky we should leave and tell our parents that we want to move. By the way we've all tried that, didn't work. Then she went on about make up even though if you slapped her you have to wipe her orange face off your hand. Good times.
Also in assembly (in Chummy's that is) a lad got really angry at said headmistress swore-every name under the sun- and stormed out while punching a massive 3D display down. So that was funny. She told everyone they were a disgrace haha we know sweetie.
The rest of the day was pretty uneventful. But I want to say you know that reason I didn't blog for ages? Yeah the mountains of homework? It was all for nothing because my teacher didn't even ask for it. Im going to stab someone.
How was your first day? Did it go how you expected it to?
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging over my Little Old World. Xxx
As I've said in the past I started school on the 3rd and well the first day was a bit eventful. Since I've hung off the whole 'life blog' aspect, I thought I'll tell you about my first day.
So, to start off I woke up at 6am which was really weird for me since on a school day I normally wake up at 7. I didn't the whole standard getting ready. There was also a moment where I died because I thought I lost my tie and it was behind my blazer. Yep. Thats me.
Also, is it just me or are shoes actually tricks? Like seriously, my mum bought me some new school shoes and I tried the on and they fit perfectly. I'm talking, comfort, style and the perfect fit. And every time once it comes to actually wearing them on the school day BOOM! shoe is a shapeshifter. I ended the days with stuffed tissue in them because they were too big, blisters, cramped toes (because my toes are weird okay), scuff marks and to be honest I would've been better with 2 squares of carpet and some elastic bands around my feet.
Anyway, I met Fandom and we walked to school and then sat in said school for an hour before lessons started. Fandom's much more popular than I am and I'm just acquaintances with, so without 15 minutes I was on my own and met with about 2 of my friends that had arrived.
After an hour my year was sent down to assembly were I freaked out outside because the most horrible people sat beside me. The lass was saying the schools worst than prison to the lad next to me because she was sent there after beating some kid up (yep thats public school) while the lad on the other side of me got really angry because a teacher told us to line up properly. My head teacher kept going on and on about how we were lucky and how our head of year won't take crap and shell upset us and that if we dont feel extremely lucky we should leave and tell our parents that we want to move. By the way we've all tried that, didn't work. Then she went on about make up even though if you slapped her you have to wipe her orange face off your hand. Good times.
Also in assembly (in Chummy's that is) a lad got really angry at said headmistress swore-every name under the sun- and stormed out while punching a massive 3D display down. So that was funny. She told everyone they were a disgrace haha we know sweetie.
The rest of the day was pretty uneventful. But I want to say you know that reason I didn't blog for ages? Yeah the mountains of homework? It was all for nothing because my teacher didn't even ask for it. Im going to stab someone.
How was your first day? Did it go how you expected it to?
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging over my Little Old World. Xxx
Sunday, 30 August 2015
who I want to be
Heyo Guys!
sorry Ive been away for so long. Ive been busy with a lot if things, as well as like 5 booklets of homework to do, being on holiday, a funeral (yay:/) and an existential crisis. So, how was your summer?! :D
Anyway, to come back I wanted to do what my aesthetic was best at doing- being deep. Woah, not like that! Basically, I'd lost motivation to do a blog post in a while but after watching dodie clark and lucy moon do a cover of faces going places, the words hit me. I'm young enough not to go my own path. But it got me thinking how much I loved train stations.
You see, I love a sense of adventure. Not indiana jones style but more lets go into town at 10 at night with a camera and curiosity. My parents are pretty strict so doing that is pretty much off the list. But, I plan to.
I want to heavy layered hair which is the colour of chocolate. I want to wear my maroon beanie and some berry wine lip stain. I want to wear my black skinny jeans, leather jacket, a tight chocker and my worn out boots. I want my eye shadow to be a dark cool brown or grey and to have thick eyeliner. And granted I have most of these things but I don't want to be anyone. I want to be the girl at the train station with bokeh in her hair. Has a nice ring don't you think? I don't want people to know my story. But I'm fascinated by other people's. I'd have a camera wrapped round my neck and a notepad my side. And I'd sit there until theres no people to photograph or write a story based on them.
I'm thinking about making a tumblr account on it. Maybe, i don't know. My lifes boring, but maybe a person I photograph with blurred lights behind them dies tomorrow. And all of you people remember them. You don't even know their name, just a story and an assumption on them. It's poetic I think. Normally you're just a person in a coffee shop reading a book that belonged to your mother? Maybe. But no one takes notice. But maybe someone does. And that fascinates me.
So, what do you think? Yay or nay idea?
As always, take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
sorry Ive been away for so long. Ive been busy with a lot if things, as well as like 5 booklets of homework to do, being on holiday, a funeral (yay:/) and an existential crisis. So, how was your summer?! :D
Anyway, to come back I wanted to do what my aesthetic was best at doing- being deep. Woah, not like that! Basically, I'd lost motivation to do a blog post in a while but after watching dodie clark and lucy moon do a cover of faces going places, the words hit me. I'm young enough not to go my own path. But it got me thinking how much I loved train stations.
You see, I love a sense of adventure. Not indiana jones style but more lets go into town at 10 at night with a camera and curiosity. My parents are pretty strict so doing that is pretty much off the list. But, I plan to.
I want to heavy layered hair which is the colour of chocolate. I want to wear my maroon beanie and some berry wine lip stain. I want to wear my black skinny jeans, leather jacket, a tight chocker and my worn out boots. I want my eye shadow to be a dark cool brown or grey and to have thick eyeliner. And granted I have most of these things but I don't want to be anyone. I want to be the girl at the train station with bokeh in her hair. Has a nice ring don't you think? I don't want people to know my story. But I'm fascinated by other people's. I'd have a camera wrapped round my neck and a notepad my side. And I'd sit there until theres no people to photograph or write a story based on them.
I'm thinking about making a tumblr account on it. Maybe, i don't know. My lifes boring, but maybe a person I photograph with blurred lights behind them dies tomorrow. And all of you people remember them. You don't even know their name, just a story and an assumption on them. It's poetic I think. Normally you're just a person in a coffee shop reading a book that belonged to your mother? Maybe. But no one takes notice. But maybe someone does. And that fascinates me.
So, what do you think? Yay or nay idea?
As always, take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Monday, 3 August 2015
Birthday Haul
Heyo Guys!
So as some of you may know it was my birthday on the 30th of July. (I didn't post for a while because it was a big weekend) and I said I'd do a haul of all the stuff I got. So here it is!
1) Shoes, these aren't you're casual heels or whatever but they're joker converse! My little sister chose them. 
2) A ukelele! I got this early and had been wanting it for a while so my parents bought me it. It's a proper one, cost about £55, but that's how you get a good quality. 
3) Another present I got from my parents was a camera! As you know, I love photography, so I guess out with the crappy iphone camera. It's a sony cybershot. 
4) Linking with photos. My mums friend got me some photography stuff. The was a basic all you need to know book and a photo album which I'll be sure to fill up.
5) Life with a sprinkle of glitter. Chummy got me this as it's Louise Pentlands (Sprinkleofgiltter) book. 
6) staying with the YouTube theme. One of my really good friends (Let's call her 'Random') got me a YouTube annual. 
7) More books! This I got from my uncle (mums older brother) and his fiancé. They're; 'The Aisle of the Lost' and 'City of Bones' from the Decendants novels and the mortal instruments. 
8) this ones probably my favourite. (I have a problem) and it's my Dan and Phil shop t-shirt. This is from also my uncle (my mums younger brother) and my Aunty. 
9) this is something I bought with my birthday money. It's a graphics tablet. The model is a UGEE. It was quote cheap from amozon and if you want to get into digital art I highly recommend. 
10) Fandom (being the amazing best friend she is) got me a photo frame with my favourite picture of us. Which is the time we went to see big hero six which the dress theme being Phil Lester since it was his birthday the same day. We wore cat whiskers and was probably one of my favourite days ever.
So that's about it! I feel spoilt rotten but I've enjoyed this birthday so much for a change. I would like to thank anyone who requested this post too :p
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Monday, 20 July 2015
The Phantom Which is Love
Heyo Guys!
Quick note; I've started writing this at 11:19 pm on a sunday listening to bonfire heart by james blunt and spent the last 2 hours listening to rusty clanton. So I'm a bit out of it, sorry.
Lately, the idea of something has been on my mind. The idea of love. I had a conversation with a friends who'd recently got over a girl he'd been liking-a lot. We got onto the topic of what love was to us, and this was my answer;
"I know what love is, I've painted this beautiful painting in my head of the love. I've seen the couples on the streets, the parents with their children and the two close friends sharing milkshakes in Starbuck. I've seen that. I think is the craving of disappearing with someone. It's when you get panicked thinking 'i have no one' but then exhaling deeply as you smile because you know you have that one person. The person who you're in love with. That's how I know I've never been in love."
Again, I sent this at 11pm, I swear I'd admit I've killed a person at this time.
Anyway, I've had this idea stuck in my head and I can't get rid of it. I live in a very sh*tty place, surrounded by sh*tty people and I'm young, perhaps I'm being a hormonal teen but I feel like this is different.
Like, I've not fallen in love with a person, that hasn't happened yet. But, I've fallen in love with the idea of love. And that's what's worrying me. There's this song a youtube wrote about falling in love with an imaginary person. (Click here for v pretty song) There's a part which says
"And if I do find love
How could it ever be the same."
Quick note; I've started writing this at 11:19 pm on a sunday listening to bonfire heart by james blunt and spent the last 2 hours listening to rusty clanton. So I'm a bit out of it, sorry.
Lately, the idea of something has been on my mind. The idea of love. I had a conversation with a friends who'd recently got over a girl he'd been liking-a lot. We got onto the topic of what love was to us, and this was my answer;
"I know what love is, I've painted this beautiful painting in my head of the love. I've seen the couples on the streets, the parents with their children and the two close friends sharing milkshakes in Starbuck. I've seen that. I think is the craving of disappearing with someone. It's when you get panicked thinking 'i have no one' but then exhaling deeply as you smile because you know you have that one person. The person who you're in love with. That's how I know I've never been in love."
Again, I sent this at 11pm, I swear I'd admit I've killed a person at this time.
Anyway, I've had this idea stuck in my head and I can't get rid of it. I live in a very sh*tty place, surrounded by sh*tty people and I'm young, perhaps I'm being a hormonal teen but I feel like this is different.
Like, I've not fallen in love with a person, that hasn't happened yet. But, I've fallen in love with the idea of love. And that's what's worrying me. There's this song a youtube wrote about falling in love with an imaginary person. (Click here for v pretty song) There's a part which says
"And if I do find love
How could it ever be the same."
Because she's created this perfect person in her head, this perfect love. So how can anything be exactly the same as her perfect painting? This is my problem.
I've put the situations of the perfect proposal, the best friend to partner situation, the fall in love slowly but then it hits you in face, the wedding, the depressing episodes and the support. And it's so beautiful. I've planned my life with a person I know I'll never live up too.
I want to fall in love. I'm positive of that. I want to actually fall in love, not run after 'illusions'. But that takes time and I have to wait. But I can't. But I can. Do you see my problem here?
Like I want to wake up next to someone I love, and for them to draw tiny circles in the palms of my sleepy arms with there finger, and for someone to hug me from behind, for a relationship which is awkward, trash, weird and adorable all at the same time. Do you get me? I'm a hopeless romantic, I know. Idk anymore, I really don't. I'm young and I don't want to rush things. But I'm so impatient, it's unbelievable.
I kind of am in love, but with something that's personal to me. I'm just confused and weird.
This has been personal again, and I don't tell people these sort of things but I trust you guys. I just need to vent idk.
Have you ever been in love? What's your perfect idea of it? If you have fallen in love, what's it like? I'd love to hear your answers.
Take care,
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Like I want to wake up next to someone I love, and for them to draw tiny circles in the palms of my sleepy arms with there finger, and for someone to hug me from behind, for a relationship which is awkward, trash, weird and adorable all at the same time. Do you get me? I'm a hopeless romantic, I know. Idk anymore, I really don't. I'm young and I don't want to rush things. But I'm so impatient, it's unbelievable.
I kind of am in love, but with something that's personal to me. I'm just confused and weird.
This has been personal again, and I don't tell people these sort of things but I trust you guys. I just need to vent idk.
Have you ever been in love? What's your perfect idea of it? If you have fallen in love, what's it like? I'd love to hear your answers.
Take care,
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Wednesday, 15 July 2015
Being Queer
Heyo Guys!
A while ago, I made a blog post about sexualities. Since then, I've learnt a lot about myself. I'm still quite confused about interests but if I'd put to into words I'd say I have 2 or 3 sexualities. And I know what you're thinking "OMG WAT? HOW CAN U HAV 3 ??1?". But let me explain.
I have feeling for girls, that's the truth. I see myself as quite a strong bi-romantic.
A while ago, I made a blog post about sexualities. Since then, I've learnt a lot about myself. I'm still quite confused about interests but if I'd put to into words I'd say I have 2 or 3 sexualities. And I know what you're thinking "OMG WAT? HOW CAN U HAV 3 ??1?". But let me explain.
I have feeling for girls, that's the truth. I see myself as quite a strong bi-romantic.
Someone who enjoys behavior typically associated with dating and love, like cuddling, hugging, gift-giving, love notes, but probably not kissing, etc. and enjoys it with both genders, without necessarily desiring subsequent sexual experience. Biromantic people can be straight, bisexual, homosexual, or asexual.
'Jane went out with a girl and bought her this beautiful bracelet. Then they cuddled and watched a movie at her apartment. They don't make out or anything like that. They only desire physical relations with men. They must be biromantic and heterosexual instead of bisexual.'
According to Urban Dictionary. I see myself quite strongly because I could see myself spending my future with another female possible. However, when I've looked at myself in the future I've seen myself with a husband and with children. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to fall in love with a girl, or a boy for that matter. But I'm most likely gonna end up with a lad because I swing like that. I'd kiss a girl, and I mean like make out (not like sexually or hardcore but standard I'd be fine with. Is this weird? It seems weird.)
Like I said before, I'm demi too.
Demisexuals are characterized by a lack of sexual attraction toward any person unless they become deeply emotionally or romantically connected with a specific person or persons. The level of connection it takes for sexual desire to form is dependent on how close the relationship is rather than initial attraction. It is an orientation that is not chosen.
Demisexuality does not refer to the active restraint or repression of sexual desires or actions.
Demi- is a prefix meaning half. This is used to mean halfway between sexual and asexual. The term originated in the asexual community, specifically within the Asexual Visibility and Education Network (AVEN).
Demisexuality does not refer to the active restraint or repression of sexual desires or actions.
Demi- is a prefix meaning half. This is used to mean halfway between sexual and asexual. The term originated in the asexual community, specifically within the Asexual Visibility and Education Network (AVEN).
Sexual partner: Hey, I think you are sexy. *aroused*
Demisexual partner: I'd have to reach a higher level of emotional intimacy before I could feel the same way. =\
Sexual partner: Oh, I see. Well, we can do something enjoyable together. =/
Demisexual partner: =D We can bake a cake for now!
Sexual partner: Sure! That's always fun, although we seem to be doing that a lot. =D
Demisexual partner: *squeee! bonding time!*
Demisexual partner: I'd have to reach a higher level of emotional intimacy before I could feel the same way. =\
Sexual partner: Oh, I see. Well, we can do something enjoyable together. =/
Demisexual partner: =D We can bake a cake for now!
Sexual partner: Sure! That's always fun, although we seem to be doing that a lot. =D
Demisexual partner: *squeee! bonding time!*
Wow, thanks urban dictionary :D!!!1! I've explained this before so I won't get into too much detail. Key point is that I'm like this with males. This is the bit you have to understand. I would only ever have sex with a male, or do any thing sexually arousing. I don't mean this is an offensive way it's just that I don't find that part about girls arousing to me, like at all.
Now, number 3s a bit weird. In the definition it says a bi-romantic can be hetrosexual too. But again, I'm quite strongly with this as their is a possibility (although it's relatively small) that I'll spend the rest of my life with a girl. So, i don't necessarily stick to this label 100% of the time. However, with it being hetrosexual, and I can only ever experience sexual attraction to a boy, i guess that's technically what i am.
I don't like labels, I never have. And tbh I hate labelling myself but personally, I feel like I need to find a label. It's weird. I can't help but search for a label, but that's just me. And for me, this not completely correct label I have atm will do me for now. You never have to label yourself. I love this quote, which kind of describes me;
It's hard sometimes. To be queer. Everyone expects you to get on a male and ride him into the sunset once you come of age. Because we live in a metro-normalised society I've been told I need to be cured of my asexuality and that I need to be diagnosed with my sexualities. People jump to conclusion when I try to explain or push me into a corner of "you're just confused". I's degrading. It honestly is. I haven't come out yet, to school peeps or family, because I'm scared. To be closeted you don'r just have to be trans, gay or bi. You van just simply not be straight. I get so fed up because I try hinting to my family and explaining the sexualities before I come out and say I fit them. And they just say it's weird and doesn't exist. So I don't exist, right? I just want it off my chest but I don't know really. I'm queer af but trying to explain that to someone is hard af.
In conclusion, this is how I would react to a situation.
1
Friend: Oh look at that incredibly sexy boy! Wouldn't you bang him?
Me: Oh yes, but once I am at a suitable age and have developed a strong romantic relationship with him first and the I'd consider it :D He'd be a really romantic person!
2
Friend: Hey! Look at that really pretty girl!
Me: Oh yes! She looks like the type of person I would like to get to know and take her home.... So we can play mario cart and cuddle on my couch! I'd love to connect with her and have a strong romantic bond! :D
This post was a bit more personal, I hope I didn't bother any of you too much.
Take Care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Thursday, 9 July 2015
Doctors and Depression
Heyo guys!
As promised I'm going to do a blog post about my experience at the doctors.
So, this happened on Friday and my appointment was at 10:20 am so I had to be taken out of school. We got to my local doctors and I had both parents come with me. My mum stayed in the car and my dad came in for moral support. After half an hour of waiting we got called in and me and my dad figured out a plan before hand. Which leads me on to tip number 1.
1) Create a plan and assess the situation.
My plan was to walk in, sit down and have my dad introduce me while I calm down from the panic attack I will have. So, we did that and my dad told the doctor my problems about my anxiety, depression and thoughts. After a gave my disorders a background thats when the doctor asked me key question.
2) Have a think about answers, don't blurt them out in panic.
It's extremely important to get your point across, so if you are asked an unexpected question have a think for a second and say what you need to say. My doctor asked me if I knew what actually started my anxiety off, if there was any life changing events thats could've caused it. Then, leading on from this we got to depression, he asked me when i started feeling like this.
3) The topics will change, most likely indicating the doctor has enough information for that subject.
After, we talked about school, if i was bullied and if the kids are horrible. Now, this is where I went wrong. My dad was in the room so i hesitated and said no, i only get 'the odd comment' which was a load of bs.
4) DONT LIE. whatever you do, tell the truth. They're there to help.
Please, don't do the same thing. If you need to, get the person you came with to leave the room.
Afterwards, he told me I couldn't have my own therapist or have licensed medication since I'm under 18.
5) Don't freak out at the response. If you don't like it what so ever, tell them.
However, he was allowed to redirect me to a place called CAMHS, which is for mentally ill young adults, but the forms that need to be taken in take a couple weeks. So, he told me to go to a place called TalkShop which is a drop off talking one on one on monday afternoons. He told me I'd be re-directed from there and if nothing changes or they recommend it, I'll go back to the doctors and we'll sign a form to send me off to CAMHS. It's like a mental hospital but like school edition. Chummy went.
6) Stay strong, I believe in you. There's always a chance.
If your appointment isn't successful, try a different doctor. There's always hope. Hopefully, this was of use to some of you, if you have any other questions I'll be happy to answer them.
Stay Strong.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
As promised I'm going to do a blog post about my experience at the doctors.
So, this happened on Friday and my appointment was at 10:20 am so I had to be taken out of school. We got to my local doctors and I had both parents come with me. My mum stayed in the car and my dad came in for moral support. After half an hour of waiting we got called in and me and my dad figured out a plan before hand. Which leads me on to tip number 1.
1) Create a plan and assess the situation.
My plan was to walk in, sit down and have my dad introduce me while I calm down from the panic attack I will have. So, we did that and my dad told the doctor my problems about my anxiety, depression and thoughts. After a gave my disorders a background thats when the doctor asked me key question.
2) Have a think about answers, don't blurt them out in panic.
It's extremely important to get your point across, so if you are asked an unexpected question have a think for a second and say what you need to say. My doctor asked me if I knew what actually started my anxiety off, if there was any life changing events thats could've caused it. Then, leading on from this we got to depression, he asked me when i started feeling like this.
3) The topics will change, most likely indicating the doctor has enough information for that subject.
After, we talked about school, if i was bullied and if the kids are horrible. Now, this is where I went wrong. My dad was in the room so i hesitated and said no, i only get 'the odd comment' which was a load of bs.
4) DONT LIE. whatever you do, tell the truth. They're there to help.
Please, don't do the same thing. If you need to, get the person you came with to leave the room.
Afterwards, he told me I couldn't have my own therapist or have licensed medication since I'm under 18.
5) Don't freak out at the response. If you don't like it what so ever, tell them.
However, he was allowed to redirect me to a place called CAMHS, which is for mentally ill young adults, but the forms that need to be taken in take a couple weeks. So, he told me to go to a place called TalkShop which is a drop off talking one on one on monday afternoons. He told me I'd be re-directed from there and if nothing changes or they recommend it, I'll go back to the doctors and we'll sign a form to send me off to CAMHS. It's like a mental hospital but like school edition. Chummy went.
6) Stay strong, I believe in you. There's always a chance.
If your appointment isn't successful, try a different doctor. There's always hope. Hopefully, this was of use to some of you, if you have any other questions I'll be happy to answer them.
Stay Strong.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Monday, 29 June 2015
Dealing With Depression
Heyo Guys!
This post is about the big D, the D which people are scared to talk about the big- wait. Get your minds out of the gutters! Not that!
Right so in all seriousness I'm talking about depression. I'd also like to thank Pointless Girl for suggesting this blog post (also her blog is amazing, please check it out :p) , although I've not been to the doctors yet (I will still blog about what happens) I want to give a few tips for dealing with it and having an understanding of it.
For starters, if you can't put depression into words this how I like to put it;
Depression is like drowning. But instead of reaching the bottom you just keep sinking. And instead of a weight on your feet you have this monster. It's made of smoke and clings onto your neck choking you even though your drowning at the same time, dragging you down to the abyss. And the light from the surface gets smaller, and smaller. And probably the worst thing is that everyone watching you sink saying "just swim" because they think you can breath.
And even then that probably doesn't sum up how horrible depression actually is.
Now, this post isn't going to be "oh it's fine you'll get better! :D I believe in you!" because although it's nice to say that you still have to get through it until it starts getting better. Depression is something that you can sleep off, it's not having an off day where you don't want to talk to someone. It's much worst than that.
If you think you have depression try and identify it:
NHS article
NHS depression test
If you are already suffering from depression or you believe you have it tell someone. And I know you hear this everyday and it's such a clique to say. But if you haven't already, try. Work your way down the list:
-Parents
-Close family members
-Close friends
-School
-A doctor
I don't mean tell everyone you know but if you really, really, feel like you can't tell your parents for whatever reason you may have move down the list. Can't tell close family? Tell a close friend. You see what I mean?
I also understand some of you may not have the confidence or cannot put your emotions into words. So if this is the case write it down. I suggested this to someone it the past and honestly I think its the best thing. Take some time to write your feelings on a piece of paper, think about what you exactly want to get across and write it all down. Say to your parents/doctor etc whats on it is something important and if you don't want for them to read it in front if you can leave the room for a bit. Think about it, all you have to do is past them a piece of paper. It'll take courage but once you do it and the panic of reading it is over you'll have a massive weight lifted from your shoulders.
While we're on the topic of doctors, some are shit. I know this from the first and last time I went for anxiety. But don't give up hope, you're not alone. Someone will be there to help you, you just have to keep looking.
Here's some links if you want to take some time to check them out and see if they help:
The Fleeting Little Life of Peter Wright
This is a short film about suicide, and trust me it seems harsh at first but seriously watch all of it and it makes you think and helped me out a lot.
Feel Good 101: Depression
A series done by emma blackery. The videos helped me a lot, especially this one. Highly recommend.
You Are Not Alone
A master tumblr post full of links.
What's Up?
This is an extremely good app for dealing with depression, anxiety, stress or anger. You can use it anywhere and is amazing. (If you have an android just type it in google play.).
Mental Health Masterpost
Another Tumblr mast post full of things to distract you, calm you and help you.
The Truth about Depression BBC
I've never seen this but I'm about to watch it. This will give you a better understanding of depression.
The Comfort Spot
I've mentioned this before but I'd like to bring it up again. This website allows you create an account and to wind down, make you feel better and forget all your problems.
Some personal experience: I like you put my headphones on and listen to your favourite songs and eat chocolate. Now, I'm not saying stress eat but chocolate contains Tryptophan which is also found in antidepressants, making you feel happier. Watch a film, just forget about the world for a moment. If you want a film suggestion- any studio ghibli films. Epically Totoro, one of my favourite films.
You can watch them here-
MovieTube
or
Kiss Anime
Also, don't push people away, I know when you feel like crap you want to be alone but a hug or a visit from a friend can make you feel so much.
I know this isn't my usual blog style but I feel like this is important to address. Please know that I'm always here for you guys if you want my advice. I love all of you <3
Take care and please stay strong.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
This post is about the big D, the D which people are scared to talk about the big- wait. Get your minds out of the gutters! Not that!
Right so in all seriousness I'm talking about depression. I'd also like to thank Pointless Girl for suggesting this blog post (also her blog is amazing, please check it out :p) , although I've not been to the doctors yet (I will still blog about what happens) I want to give a few tips for dealing with it and having an understanding of it.
For starters, if you can't put depression into words this how I like to put it;
Depression is like drowning. But instead of reaching the bottom you just keep sinking. And instead of a weight on your feet you have this monster. It's made of smoke and clings onto your neck choking you even though your drowning at the same time, dragging you down to the abyss. And the light from the surface gets smaller, and smaller. And probably the worst thing is that everyone watching you sink saying "just swim" because they think you can breath.
And even then that probably doesn't sum up how horrible depression actually is.
Now, this post isn't going to be "oh it's fine you'll get better! :D I believe in you!" because although it's nice to say that you still have to get through it until it starts getting better. Depression is something that you can sleep off, it's not having an off day where you don't want to talk to someone. It's much worst than that.
If you think you have depression try and identify it:
NHS article
NHS depression test
If you are already suffering from depression or you believe you have it tell someone. And I know you hear this everyday and it's such a clique to say. But if you haven't already, try. Work your way down the list:
-Parents
-Close family members
-Close friends
-School
-A doctor
I don't mean tell everyone you know but if you really, really, feel like you can't tell your parents for whatever reason you may have move down the list. Can't tell close family? Tell a close friend. You see what I mean?
I also understand some of you may not have the confidence or cannot put your emotions into words. So if this is the case write it down. I suggested this to someone it the past and honestly I think its the best thing. Take some time to write your feelings on a piece of paper, think about what you exactly want to get across and write it all down. Say to your parents/doctor etc whats on it is something important and if you don't want for them to read it in front if you can leave the room for a bit. Think about it, all you have to do is past them a piece of paper. It'll take courage but once you do it and the panic of reading it is over you'll have a massive weight lifted from your shoulders.
While we're on the topic of doctors, some are shit. I know this from the first and last time I went for anxiety. But don't give up hope, you're not alone. Someone will be there to help you, you just have to keep looking.
Here's some links if you want to take some time to check them out and see if they help:
The Fleeting Little Life of Peter Wright
This is a short film about suicide, and trust me it seems harsh at first but seriously watch all of it and it makes you think and helped me out a lot.
Feel Good 101: Depression
A series done by emma blackery. The videos helped me a lot, especially this one. Highly recommend.
You Are Not Alone
A master tumblr post full of links.
What's Up?
This is an extremely good app for dealing with depression, anxiety, stress or anger. You can use it anywhere and is amazing. (If you have an android just type it in google play.).
Mental Health Masterpost
Another Tumblr mast post full of things to distract you, calm you and help you.
The Truth about Depression BBC
I've never seen this but I'm about to watch it. This will give you a better understanding of depression.
The Comfort Spot
I've mentioned this before but I'd like to bring it up again. This website allows you create an account and to wind down, make you feel better and forget all your problems.
Some personal experience: I like you put my headphones on and listen to your favourite songs and eat chocolate. Now, I'm not saying stress eat but chocolate contains Tryptophan which is also found in antidepressants, making you feel happier. Watch a film, just forget about the world for a moment. If you want a film suggestion- any studio ghibli films. Epically Totoro, one of my favourite films.
You can watch them here-
MovieTube
or
Kiss Anime
Also, don't push people away, I know when you feel like crap you want to be alone but a hug or a visit from a friend can make you feel so much.
I know this isn't my usual blog style but I feel like this is important to address. Please know that I'm always here for you guys if you want my advice. I love all of you <3
Take care and please stay strong.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Wednesday, 24 June 2015
Updates
Heyo Guys!
I've realised in the past couple posts I've not really updated you guys on my life and where it's at now. And obviously I don't want to leave you guys in the dark. That's not what this blog's about!
So, for starters I'm moving up a year on Monday! Like I've said my school does this weird thing where we move up a year before the holidays start. So I start "July Curriculum" on Monday the 29th, which I'm not too fussed about. It's only the 4 hours of Spanish which might make me livid...
Secondly, it's my birthday in a month (30th of July)! I'm supposed to be getting a camera, ukulele and some other things. Would you like a haul after? Idk what I'm doing yet but I'm positive I'll blog about all of it and just about birthdays in general.
Also, as some of you know I have anxiety. I'm going to the doctors next week for it and also to see abut depression. I understand it's not the best thing to bring up but maybe I could give you some tips after I've had my visit?
I'd also like to note I've been late with blog posts since I've had exams this weeks, which are just mocks but I still had to revise and stuff. So, sorry about that. I should be getting back again though.
I think that's about it? I've probably got more stuff but yano, I'm forgetful. I'll probably go back and edit this if anything new happens/ I remember :p
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
I've realised in the past couple posts I've not really updated you guys on my life and where it's at now. And obviously I don't want to leave you guys in the dark. That's not what this blog's about!
So, for starters I'm moving up a year on Monday! Like I've said my school does this weird thing where we move up a year before the holidays start. So I start "July Curriculum" on Monday the 29th, which I'm not too fussed about. It's only the 4 hours of Spanish which might make me livid...
Secondly, it's my birthday in a month (30th of July)! I'm supposed to be getting a camera, ukulele and some other things. Would you like a haul after? Idk what I'm doing yet but I'm positive I'll blog about all of it and just about birthdays in general.
Also, as some of you know I have anxiety. I'm going to the doctors next week for it and also to see abut depression. I understand it's not the best thing to bring up but maybe I could give you some tips after I've had my visit?
I'd also like to note I've been late with blog posts since I've had exams this weeks, which are just mocks but I still had to revise and stuff. So, sorry about that. I should be getting back again though.
I think that's about it? I've probably got more stuff but yano, I'm forgetful. I'll probably go back and edit this if anything new happens/ I remember :p
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Monday, 15 June 2015
ANNOUNCEMENT
Heyo Guys,
So ignore the last post, wasn't really a good idea now I think about it.
Anyway, I have an announcement! I don't know if you want to hear about or whatever but I'll tell you anyway.
Soooooooooo, I have a few things on my bucket list and about a year and a half away I'm going to tick now thing off. And I know 15 months seems like ages but something tells me it'll fly by. Plus I just couldn't bare to tell you. So here it goes...
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.
.
.
.
.
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I'M GOING TO NEW YORK AND WASHINGTON!!!!!!!!
I can't believe it! And I don't know how I'll be able to contain my excitement! It's a school trip thing and we'll be doing everything. I list you the stuff from the letter;
" The key details about the planned trip:
The price includes:
Activities included in cost of trip are:
So ignore the last post, wasn't really a good idea now I think about it.
Anyway, I have an announcement! I don't know if you want to hear about or whatever but I'll tell you anyway.
Soooooooooo, I have a few things on my bucket list and about a year and a half away I'm going to tick now thing off. And I know 15 months seems like ages but something tells me it'll fly by. Plus I just couldn't bare to tell you. So here it goes...
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
I'M GOING TO NEW YORK AND WASHINGTON!!!!!!!!
I can't believe it! And I don't know how I'll be able to contain my excitement! It's a school trip thing and we'll be doing everything. I list you the stuff from the letter;
" The key details about the planned trip:
- 7 days and 6 nights
- Departure on 21 October 2016
- Return on 27 October 2016
The price includes:
- Return Flights
- Airport transfer in New York
- 3 nights at the YMCA Westside
- 3x continental breakfast in New York
- 1 meal at Bubba Gump Shrimp Co Restaurant
- 3 corse mean including soft drink at Ellen Stardust Diner
- 2 course meal with drinks at Planet Hollywood
- 2 nights at the Harrington Hotel
- 2x continental buffet breakfast at Hotel Harrington
- Main corse plus dessert with soft drink at Hard Rock Cafe
Activities included in cost of trip are:
- Entrance to Empire State Building
- Visit to Statue of Liberty
- Visit to World Trade Centre
- Guided walking tour of downtown Manhattan or Financial District
- Tour of NBC Studios
- Broadway theatre tickets (Show TBA)
- Entrance to Gettysburg Military Park including guide
- 4 hour tour of Washington
- Tour of White House (subject to availability)
- Airport transfer to Washington "
We're going to be loads of other things too, that's just what the letter's saying we're doing for definite. I can't wait, imagine the blog posts I'll do for you! I know it's a while away but most of the places have free internet so I'll try blogging everyday.
So, what do you think about this? Have you ever been to New York/Washington?
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Sunday, 7 June 2015
Art!
Heyo Guys!
See, for once I kept my word and I'm actually blogging! Who wouldda know?
Anyway, I've been sketch a lot these past few days and I'm running out of ideas! I've fallen back in love with art after the stress of art course work disappeared and I'm happy to draw again. I'd also like to do something linking with you guys. I think it would be a good idea for me to get some suggestions from you. It'll be a completely personal drawing/sketch and I'll do it as best I can. Just pop a comment saying what you would like me to draw for you and I'd happily do it. I'll do a blog post around next week with your blog link, your suggestion and a picture of the drawing itself. I would really appreciate it since I'm bored like no other XD
Also, I have a huge announcement (imo) for next week's blog too, I think you'll quite like to find out about it.
Sorry it's only short but there will be a lot coming next week hopefully!
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
See, for once I kept my word and I'm actually blogging! Who wouldda know?
Anyway, I've been sketch a lot these past few days and I'm running out of ideas! I've fallen back in love with art after the stress of art course work disappeared and I'm happy to draw again. I'd also like to do something linking with you guys. I think it would be a good idea for me to get some suggestions from you. It'll be a completely personal drawing/sketch and I'll do it as best I can. Just pop a comment saying what you would like me to draw for you and I'd happily do it. I'll do a blog post around next week with your blog link, your suggestion and a picture of the drawing itself. I would really appreciate it since I'm bored like no other XD
Also, I have a huge announcement (imo) for next week's blog too, I think you'll quite like to find out about it.
Sorry it's only short but there will be a lot coming next week hopefully!
Take care.
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
Friday, 5 June 2015
Holding Fugitive
Heyo Guys!
Woah woah woah! I didn't actually like break into a high security prison using spoons to bust out my mass murderer uncle and know he's hiding under my bed (pfffttt like I would actually do that... whaaaaa you on about theres a human like figure under me, whaaaaa).
No, but I did help Fandom. I'll skip the backstory, basically she got into an argument with her mum and ran out. West was there along with Fandom's boyfriend 'Jammy' so we all treked down to the secret lake and hid for like 3 hours. Once Jammy had to leave we walked back down to the park near my house and this is when we planned holding a fugitive in my back garden.
Step 1- Ask for Permission from Government Secret Service
West: Mum can we get the tent.?
West mum: Ye
Me: Mum can I have some mates over, Fandom's only ran away from home and now we want to hold a criminal in hiding.
My mum: Ye
Step 2: Gather Super Spy Equipment
*West and I break into her house and steal a pink and green 1 person tent*
Step 3: Sneak Highly Wanted Person into Base
*Lose Fandom when we get to park*
Yeah... This was when it went to crap.
So we trek to the park with a freaking tent and Fandom's gone. Annnnnnndd then West gets a message from Fandom's mum saying if we don't know where she is she's calling the po po. Now this is when step 4 put into action:
Step 4:Abandon everything. Run. Run Now.
I pegged it down to find Fandom and when I do I start telling her to ring her nan and make sure our butts don't get shut down. As Fandom's on the phone her mum swerves round the corner and she wasn't pleased. Like at all.
Step 5: Well. shit.
Fandom storms off avoiding all contact with her mother because she was done with everything and I just walked. I did not want to freak out and stand there like a duck. Her mums screaming. Fandom has done caring. I hide behind a pole. More screaming. Fandom sits in the middle of the field and has officially gave up all f**ks.
I then got shouted over by her mum and she had an operation on her leg and had to leave Fandom's brother at home to come find her. (Again we'd been out for like 4 hours now). She really wanted Fandom to get in the car and that otherwise the po po will kill us all. So I had to talk to Fandom and she got up and gave her phone to West so it wouldn't be taken from her. She runs to her mum and still refuses to get in the car and me and west walk to my house.
About 15 minutes later when we were building the tent Fandom's mum finds out and asked for her phone etc. Once she left my dad just goes.
"Ohhh what banta's gone off??"
Just so you all know we're all find and we laugh about it so yeah! Have you guys ever done anything like this?
PS. sorry for not blogging, I'm still blog at the weekend too.
Take care.
Little Old Me, in my Little Old World. Xxx
Woah woah woah! I didn't actually like break into a high security prison using spoons to bust out my mass murderer uncle and know he's hiding under my bed (pfffttt like I would actually do that... whaaaaa you on about theres a human like figure under me, whaaaaa).
No, but I did help Fandom. I'll skip the backstory, basically she got into an argument with her mum and ran out. West was there along with Fandom's boyfriend 'Jammy' so we all treked down to the secret lake and hid for like 3 hours. Once Jammy had to leave we walked back down to the park near my house and this is when we planned holding a fugitive in my back garden.
Step 1- Ask for Permission from Government Secret Service
West: Mum can we get the tent.?
West mum: Ye
Me: Mum can I have some mates over, Fandom's only ran away from home and now we want to hold a criminal in hiding.
My mum: Ye
Step 2: Gather Super Spy Equipment
*West and I break into her house and steal a pink and green 1 person tent*
Step 3: Sneak Highly Wanted Person into Base
*Lose Fandom when we get to park*
Yeah... This was when it went to crap.
So we trek to the park with a freaking tent and Fandom's gone. Annnnnnndd then West gets a message from Fandom's mum saying if we don't know where she is she's calling the po po. Now this is when step 4 put into action:
Step 4:Abandon everything. Run. Run Now.
I pegged it down to find Fandom and when I do I start telling her to ring her nan and make sure our butts don't get shut down. As Fandom's on the phone her mum swerves round the corner and she wasn't pleased. Like at all.
Step 5: Well. shit.
Fandom storms off avoiding all contact with her mother because she was done with everything and I just walked. I did not want to freak out and stand there like a duck. Her mums screaming. Fandom has done caring. I hide behind a pole. More screaming. Fandom sits in the middle of the field and has officially gave up all f**ks.
I then got shouted over by her mum and she had an operation on her leg and had to leave Fandom's brother at home to come find her. (Again we'd been out for like 4 hours now). She really wanted Fandom to get in the car and that otherwise the po po will kill us all. So I had to talk to Fandom and she got up and gave her phone to West so it wouldn't be taken from her. She runs to her mum and still refuses to get in the car and me and west walk to my house.
About 15 minutes later when we were building the tent Fandom's mum finds out and asked for her phone etc. Once she left my dad just goes.
"Ohhh what banta's gone off??"
Just so you all know we're all find and we laugh about it so yeah! Have you guys ever done anything like this?
PS. sorry for not blogging, I'm still blog at the weekend too.
Take care.
Little Old Me, in my Little Old World. Xxx
Monday, 25 May 2015
A quite place
Heyo guys!
Do you ever have that place where you can rewind? Where you can sit down and forget your problems? Well I was inspired by Will Darbyshire's video. I know I've done a similar post like this but it's still different.
In Will's video he explains that when he's in his place he realises his problems don't really matter.
I think this has much truth. Recently my favourite teacher had to leave school due to travel reason and we all had a good cry in our drama club leaving party. After I met up with some friends and we visited my secret lake near my house. It's basically this small lake hidden behind a load of bushes and it's next to a wear-house and main road (I'll take picture and show them in a later blog post). Anyway, we laid on the bay and it was so nice. The silence was so beautiful. I laid there and realised is my teacher going to move on? Yes. Am I going to move on? Yes. Will she be sad? Yes. Will you be sad? Yes.
Will that last forever? No.
My teacher will probably get married to her boyfriend and start a family. Have a new drama club and so many other things. But I'm happy I left an imprint on her story.
That lake doesn't have problems. That lake doesn't care. I've learnt the world moves on. We are characters in our own story. Characters leave, die, hurt us and enter them. But we always turn the pages. In other people's stories we're just a person drinking coffee in their Saturday shopping trip. A car zooming by. A love. An enemy. But we will never be the 100% man character of someone else's story.
Don't panic about that. Be comforted by the fact that you have your own story. And that the pages will always turn. And eventually we'll reach a new chapter. No matter what.
Do you ever have that place where you can rewind? Where you can sit down and forget your problems? Well I was inspired by Will Darbyshire's video. I know I've done a similar post like this but it's still different.
In Will's video he explains that when he's in his place he realises his problems don't really matter.
I think this has much truth. Recently my favourite teacher had to leave school due to travel reason and we all had a good cry in our drama club leaving party. After I met up with some friends and we visited my secret lake near my house. It's basically this small lake hidden behind a load of bushes and it's next to a wear-house and main road (I'll take picture and show them in a later blog post). Anyway, we laid on the bay and it was so nice. The silence was so beautiful. I laid there and realised is my teacher going to move on? Yes. Am I going to move on? Yes. Will she be sad? Yes. Will you be sad? Yes.
Will that last forever? No.
My teacher will probably get married to her boyfriend and start a family. Have a new drama club and so many other things. But I'm happy I left an imprint on her story.
That lake doesn't have problems. That lake doesn't care. I've learnt the world moves on. We are characters in our own story. Characters leave, die, hurt us and enter them. But we always turn the pages. In other people's stories we're just a person drinking coffee in their Saturday shopping trip. A car zooming by. A love. An enemy. But we will never be the 100% man character of someone else's story.
Don't panic about that. Be comforted by the fact that you have your own story. And that the pages will always turn. And eventually we'll reach a new chapter. No matter what.
Monday, 18 May 2015
Schooooools Out!
Heyo Guys!
As most of you know school is coming to a close! (Thank god) 1 half term and a week to go until we (or most of us) move up! My school's really weird though, about 3 weeks into the last term we move up a year, unless you're in year 11, then you finish exams and leave all together if you want. Because of this special occasion I'm going to do the thing British people do best! Rant!
Woah, woah, woah. This is going to be a thing where I cuss and scream about moral rights or something, it's just a rant about what my personal school is like. If you like rant and tell me about your school below. You won't believe how fun it is to just write it all down.
(PS I am very grateful for my free education, I'm glad I'm lucky enough to have one. But in most cases it's the actual school that's the problem.)
A problem that is happening right now:
So, about a year ago during the start of the 6 week holidays I dip dyed my hair electric blue. By the time I was back in school it had faded loads, now it was a metallic faint greenish which blended with my dark hair. I wore a plate just to be safe. The third day at school was our welcome back assembly. walk through the door and instantly, my least favourite teacher (lets call her Miss. Monger) grabs me and spits
"Stay behind at the end." I do and obviously it was because of my bright blue distracting neon hair. She said this to me and I quote. "Why do you insist on dying your hair such stupid colours?!" Like because it's my hair and it's my body?
Anyway, one of my good friends 'Mush' dyed her blonde hair blue and walked into school no problem. In fact, when I was taken out of assembly again (about a month ago) me and a couple girls were told off for wearing 'too much' makeup. I wore liquid eyeliner and that's it. Now I don't because I was close to isolation. So, mush got told off for her eyeshadow. Not her hair. Eyeshadow. Can you see why I'm upset? Not to mention the year 7 with purple hair and the year 11 with candy floss pink hair!
What do you think?
I'm going to pop off because I'm not going to bore you with 100 reasons why I hate school...
Take care!
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
As most of you know school is coming to a close! (Thank god) 1 half term and a week to go until we (or most of us) move up! My school's really weird though, about 3 weeks into the last term we move up a year, unless you're in year 11, then you finish exams and leave all together if you want. Because of this special occasion I'm going to do the thing British people do best! Rant!
Woah, woah, woah. This is going to be a thing where I cuss and scream about moral rights or something, it's just a rant about what my personal school is like. If you like rant and tell me about your school below. You won't believe how fun it is to just write it all down.
(PS I am very grateful for my free education, I'm glad I'm lucky enough to have one. But in most cases it's the actual school that's the problem.)
A problem that is happening right now:
So, about a year ago during the start of the 6 week holidays I dip dyed my hair electric blue. By the time I was back in school it had faded loads, now it was a metallic faint greenish which blended with my dark hair. I wore a plate just to be safe. The third day at school was our welcome back assembly. walk through the door and instantly, my least favourite teacher (lets call her Miss. Monger) grabs me and spits
"Stay behind at the end." I do and obviously it was because of my bright blue distracting neon hair. She said this to me and I quote. "Why do you insist on dying your hair such stupid colours?!" Like because it's my hair and it's my body?
Anyway, one of my good friends 'Mush' dyed her blonde hair blue and walked into school no problem. In fact, when I was taken out of assembly again (about a month ago) me and a couple girls were told off for wearing 'too much' makeup. I wore liquid eyeliner and that's it. Now I don't because I was close to isolation. So, mush got told off for her eyeshadow. Not her hair. Eyeshadow. Can you see why I'm upset? Not to mention the year 7 with purple hair and the year 11 with candy floss pink hair!
What do you think?
I'm going to pop off because I'm not going to bore you with 100 reasons why I hate school...
Take care!
Little Old Me, logging off my Little Old World. Xxx
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